Please excuse me….

HE DID. SO I CAN. AND I WILL.

Sorry for the abandonment. The visual to me is as important as my thoughts. My blog was a complete eye soar last week when I tried to change my theme. I can not think in a disorganized world. My scatter activity exist and is produce by me only. All foreign mishaps delay my thinking. I’ll get stronger. Energy visited and caused me to try and I succeeded in finding a secondary world for now.

Well, Obama is President!! I guess I should feel extra proud because PIllow is brown. Yes, I am an American-African. His presidency has proven to all shades that excuses are not applicable to an American. He has set an example that dedication and hard work can  fulfill any dream or idea.

I am proud of Obama because he a darker brother made it further than I could ever dream of until now. However, Obama was raised by a White home. Black principals, Black judgments, nor Black wisdom cultivated Obama into the being he is today.

He is a person. He is a human. He is a man. He was raised by people of wisdom who had a strong understanding of reality. He thinks freely. You can see it in his speaches that he means what he says. His drive for life is noted and studied in hopes to become a producer. Obama’s gift cannot be determined or valued by flesh. May love filter his heart forever. I voted for Obama because he is intelligent, he spoke of my needs and he is brown. The opposite shade of me supported him more than my shared complexion of people. I hope his Presidency proves to all that color has nothing to do with character or intelligence. The people who raise you creates you unless you disregard all teachings and make yourself.

Now back to Pillow thoughts a.k.a feelings. My thought now is to move on with love. I’ve been thinking lately that I need to tell all secrets, embarrassments, and feelings with my other. I want a united world with him but most of all with self. I’m all over the place. I think and commit partial to my understanding. The goal is to find a world I can call home and not feel like I’m putting in a bid every now and then. A secure place to think and to receive translucent responses from other. No judgments or preaching. Just me being me freely. Without insecurities. Without fear. But with love and admiration from my other.

Life is far from over and near a new beginning. So why the hell do I feel so lost and dead most times. I know the reason why my spirit gets weak. I’m just too chicken to take the chance to ~ (scattered thought)

Have you ever caught yourself speaking for another. While your talking you realize you disagree with all that was said. You don’t reveal the truth to the recipient instead  you walk away pondering why you lied. Why did I ramble off of feelings I collect from my circle? It’s crazy!

The beautiful notion of Pillow thoughts is that I have no limits. I can share, feel and EDIT. Ummmmm…. I lost my train of thought so peace and love until a new thought.

~ Pillow

My Beginning Here….

Culture #1…… I have scattered thoughts. I hope you can follow. It’s easy;)

I am a helpless romantic striving for a better life through music, marketing, and television. I am a singer. I work as an online advertiser and business development associate. I am also developing a cartoon show idea that was inspired by the Boondocks. Now I am a newbie blogger.

Pillowthoughts is my venting place. My safe haven for thoughts. I have inner desires and feelings that have not been released due to a significant other inability to grow with me. I plan to get personal, intimiate, and open with myself and all that stop by. Please enjoy me as I will enjoy reading your thoughts. 

~ Love Pillow

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